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my poor blog …

I haven’t forsaken you, really.  I’ve just gotten a little busy. You understand, right?  It’s nothing personal. I’ll get back to you in a few days, and we’ll have a nice dialog about something immensely interesting and wrapped in poignant insights.  I hope you’re well, my little online persona.

An Experiment

OK, ronnyd’s blog is now open for anyone to post a comment.  I’m moderating them, but you are no longer required to log in before commenting.  You must include your name and email (which will not be displayed (the email that is, your name will appear).

I’m expecting lots and lots of comment s now. ;-)

Time. Please slow down.

There is so much to do, to learn, to feel, to take care of,  to accomplish, and to finish. I am not the first, and I am damn certain that I am not going to be the last, to express the exasperation that one feels when one realizes that time is not slowing down but is in fact speeding up and that the days and weeks are passing by much much too quickly.

25 Years Ago Today


9 October 1940 – 8 December 1980On the 8th of December 1980, on the upper west side of Manhattan, John Lennon was shot and killed by Mark David Chapman. Chapman shot Lennon just after he and Yoko Ono had exited their limousine to walk into their home at the Dakota Apartment Building on 72nd Street.

It wasn’t until a few years ago that I realized that Yoko had been right next to John as Chapman shot him. For as much as people will blame Yoko for breaking up the Beatles and say nasty things about her and her influence over Lennon, watching helplessly as your lover and soulmate is gunned down in front of you is not something that I would wish on anyone.

On the 29th of October of this year, I visited the Imagine memorial in the Strawberry Fields section of NYC’s Central Park. I also walked along 72nd street in front of the Dakota. The Dakota is just across the street from the Park and the site of the memorial. I’ve read that Yoko, who still lives in the Dakota, can see the memorial from her home and will often watch when there are memorial services and remembrance gatherings for Lennon at the memorial site, as I’m sure there is today.

I didn’t feel right about taking a photo of myself in front of the memorial, but I felt I could get away with snapping a picture of the memorial itself:

The Beatles are one of my favorite musical groups, if not at the very top of the list. I was just shy of my sixth birthday when Lennon was murdered. I don’t remember much of the details from firsthand memory at all, but I can recall just that there was a massive amount of news coverage in the days and weeks afterward. I remember that every time the topic of Lennon’s murder arose in the ensuing years of the 80′s I could always place myself back in the living room of our childhood home and feel myself watching the coverage of the funeral. I can remember the feeling of watching and knowing that everyone was sad and upset, but not really comprehending what was actually happening meant to everyone.

My appreciation for the band didn’t fully mature until sometime in high school. I finally paid attention to Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band during my junior year and jumped to the ‘white album’ next. The more I discovered the Beatles’ and Lennon’s music the more senseless his death became. I’m still discovering their music and I’m still dumbfounded by his death.

The world misses you, John.

topmost Imagine photo credit is (AP Photo/Bebeto Matthews)

white shirt, white bike

Well, here she is, my new pride and joy. My new 2004 Santa Cruz Blur. I’m insuring this one and registering it with the National Bike Registry. Don’t even try to steal it, motherf#$%ers!

No comments on the hair please.

I got it this evening and I’ve been putting it together, but I accidentally squeezed the brake levers on it without the discs between the brakepads, and I need to make an adjustment on both of them tomorrow to finish with the wheels. Also, this bike was built once already, and I cannot believe that whomever built this thing up would mar it like they did with all of the extra stickers they put over the damn thing. They are so damn ugly. I count six extra on the frame, and four extra on the fork! What the hell? They’re coming off once this thing goes for a test ride and I decide that it’s good to go and I can keep it.

Here’s a thought on bikes: While I’m going to enjoy this one for what it can do, and let’s face it, with the specs on this thing, it can probably do more than I can ever hope to get out of it, it’s going to require some diligence and effort to maintain. There is a hydraulic disc braking system, a suspension fork in the front, a suspension frame with an air shock in the rear, and of course, front and rear derailleurs. It’s a complex machine. A complex machine means more parts, more parts means more maintenance, and more maintenance means that there is more to forget to do, and that of course means that there are going to be more things that can fail.

Thinking about this makes me looks forward to the mechanical simplicity of my rigid singlespeed when I get that project done

looks like puke, tastes like a dream

Here’s a picture of my breakfast from yesterday. I told my sister about it, she responded with a “gross!”, and when I looked at my creation again, I thought the same thing. It does look a little bit like puke. But you can’t think about that, you must resist the urge to vomit when you see it, simply smell its deliciousness, and take a bite.

What is it? It’s scrambled eggs and chunky homemade tomato sauce. The sauce was just okay. Not my finest work, so I’ll leave out the details of what went into the sauce when I made it.

I had some leftover sauce from a lasagne that I had made about a week and a half ago, and not wanting the left over sauce to go to waste, and not really in the mood for pasta for breakfast, I decided to make an omelet and pour the sauce over. However, lack of any milk in the house changed the plan from an omelet to scrambled eggs.

I poured some olive oil into my new pan, threw in a sliced up clove or two of garlic, sauteed them, put in the left over sauce, heated it up until it bubbled, and then broke three eggs into it, stirring them and cooking them until they firmed up. Voila, you have a delicious, but foul looking plate of food to have for breakfast!

‘why I couldn’t find my car last night’ or ‘a new friend in need’

monday 12 sept 2005

I left my friend’s house late last night, around half past midnight, pretty sure that I had all of the street names down, and that I was heading in the direction where I thought I had parked my car. I parked quite a ways away because the parking in my friend’s neighborhood was tight, and so I ended up about six or seven blocks away from his house. I walked down his street, made a right and then made the left that I was supposed to make, and kept on walking. I know I was heading in the right direction up until I made the left, but about two blocks down that street, things started to look a little unfamiliar.

I made another right, thinking that maybe I was on the right track, but, really, I already knew that I wasn’t. All of the houses and apartment buildings on this street were new to me; hadn’t seen them before. I wasn’t all that upset that I couldn’t find the car, because I knew that it was in only a few blocks’ radius. I figured that I would just walk along all of them, systematically knocking them off as I passed, and hoping for some familiarity to come. I walked a few more blocks and saw a streetsign ahead that I at least recognized, and from there I would know where I was, but I still wouldn’t know where my car was.

I approached the intersection of the street that I was walking along and the street that I recognized and stopped. From the corner of my right eye I saw something across the street and looked over to see a small dog, about 35 pounds and 15 inches tall, standing on the corner across the street, looking over at me. This surprised me that he was just standing and looking at me, but because of this I knew right away that he wouldn’t run if I kept cool. I said ‘hi’ and waved, because, well, I always say ‘hi’ to dogs, and then called him over. The dog moved slowly across the street, but when I crouched down to his level he began to trot and then to run over to me. I started to pet him right away, and I think that he was grateful for the attention. He rolled over and asked for a belly rub.

He had on a collar, so that was a good sign, and while reading the red heart-shaped tag I quickly realized, oops, that he was in fact, a she. Nina was her name, she was out on her own past midnight, and I guessed not where she was supposed to be. There was a 510 area code phone number on the tag, so I pulled out the cell phone and dialed. It was already about 12:40 am, but if my dog were out on her own, I would damn well want to be woken up to come and get her. So I called, and after about three rings, a woman, clearly just waking up from the ringing phone, answered with a sleepy “Hello?”

“Hi, sorry for waking you up, but do you have a dog named Nina?”
“Um, Yeah.” she said, probably wondering what the hell I was talking about at that time of night, so I explained,
“Well, she’s out with me at the corner of Oakland and Moss, we’re out on the Northwest corner.”
“Okay, I’ll be right out.”
“Okay, we’ll wait here.”

Well, good, Nina was about to go home. I was going to bring her home with me if I had to, but since the phone number was good, she would get a nice reunion. I was tired and didn’t feel like standing, so I sat on the corner with her to wait and started to pet her. At that point I honestly didn’t know from where her owner was going to be coming. She could be coming from down the street, or it could be from blocks away. Nina was very cute, and rolled over for a belly rub again. Hmm, I was thinking maybe I shouldn’t have called in the first place. No, I wasn’t really thinking that, I would hate it if someone even thought of stealing my dog.

A very short while after I sat and started petting Nina she sat up, her ears perked, and she began staring across the street, seeing and hearing something that only dogs can. Her owner was coming, Nina could sense it, and I felt good.

The person to appear from the shadows wasn’t the woman who answered the phone, but instead a man. He was carrying a leash and as soon as Nina saw him come out from the shadows, she got excited and began to cross the street. I told her to wait, and the she did, before I looked both ways, and then told her it was alright to cross, after which she bolted right for the man. Good, I thought, she obviously knows and likes this man.

I said ‘hi’ to him as he leashed her up, he asking me where she was when I found her. I told him about seeing her across the street as I was walking and pointed to the corner where I had initially spotted her. I asked if she normally gets out, and he said no, and that he couldn’t figure out how she did it, because they had checked to make sure that everything that needed closing was closed before they went to bed. He thanked me, we shook hands and went our separate ways.

About three minutes later I found my car.

This was a reason that it took so long to find my car initially: I had a job to do.

I had to make sure that a dog named Nina made it home safely.

still alive and back in california

I’m back in California as of last Tuesday. I’m going to spend the weekend in San Franciso dog & house sitting. I’m enjoying my time off, though there have some matters that have required my attention and taken me away from the feeling of liberation and relaxation I’ve been craving. They’ve been minor distractions and have been tolerable.

I dropped my phone into a campfire last Monday night, so have been without phone service since then. I should be rectifying that today. I fell into the fire too, and I thought that I had survived unscathed save for some scratches on my legs, I found a blister on my right calf this morning. Obviously I must have burned it. My fleece has some warping on it, but is still servicable, and my camera case is all messy and partly melted, but it did its job and protected the camera.

Here’s the victim of campfire abuse:
That being said, I’ve lost a significant portion of the numbers that I had stored in the phone, it being a pre-simcard model. I have most of the them stored on my PC, but the ones that I had not yet transferred over, I have lost. [Yeah Yeah Yeah, you gadget whores, the phone was 'ugly' to begin with, but I got three good years out of that beast, and was prepped for at least a few more until I fell into that burning ring of fire. -- Apologies to Johnny Cash.] If you could send me your digits when you get a chance, that would be super. Just email me!

Speaking of a Johnny, happy birthday Jonny G!

three minutes fifty-one seconds to infection

tuesday 19 July 2005 04:15 GMT + 1
Zurich, Switzerland

For the past couple of days I’ve had a terrible ear infection. I wasn’t bothered all of the time by it, but when it flared, it was an inferno. The infection would come and go without warning, without anything triggering it that I could consciously sense.

It was aggravating and pleasant at the same time. No, I’m not a masochist.
This was one of the worst cases of an ear worm infection that I had ever had.

I had the first attack a few days ago. I was walking to the tram stop outside of my hotel here in Zurich, and I suddenly remembered and began hearing a lovely melody in my head. At that time I couldn’t remember anything besides the melody, but I could swear that it was a violin. I kept jogging the melody around, trying to pull out the name of the song, the artist, or at some lyrics, but something distracted me on my way to wherever I was going and I forgot about it.

I was hit again last night when taking some pictures of the decorated teddy bears that are all over Zurich. With this attack, I got some semblance of the lyrics floating alongside the melody, but they weren’t anything that I could remember and look up later. I just remembered echoes and not the words themselves.

I had my player with me, so I began going through artists who I thought it might be: Bob Dylan, The Strokes, the Napoleon Dynamite and Garden State soundtracks, all stuff I had been listening to recently. None of those had the damn song that kept floating in and out with the worm attacks.

The worm started crawling again at dinner tonight. Again I was getting only the vague almost-lyrics, and still tying them to nothing concrete. I let it go and finished my meal.

I haven’t been sleeping very well on this trip, sleeping odd hours on the weekends, and waking up randomly in the middle of the night, unable to go back to sleep. It’s three in the morning as I type this. I was hit again while lying awake. This time something came to me: a W. I looked at the player’s list. Ween? No. Weezer? No no no. Wilco? Yes! That was it. I knew it before even finding the song that I had finally cured myself. It was just a matter of pressing the skip button until the melody that had been haunting me for days flowed into the earphones.

I must have been doing something else when I had listened to the album last. I wasn’t paying attention to the music, and was unconsciously put at risk to infection. You’ve got to remember to practice safe music listening.

“Jesus, etc.”
Yankee Hotel Foxtrot
Wilco

Jesus, don’t cry
you can rely on me honey
you can combine anything you want
I’ll be around
you were right about the stars
each one is a setting sun

tall buildings shake
voices escape singing sad sad songs
tuned to chords strung down your cheeks
bitter melodies turning your orbit around

don’t cry
you can rely on me honey
you can come by any time you want
I’ll be around
you were right about the stars
each one is a setting sun

tall buildings shake
voices escape singing sad sad songs
tuned to chords strung down your cheeks
bitter melodies turning your orbit around

voices whine
skyscrapers are scraping, your gravelly voice
is smoking
my cigarettes are all you can get
turning your orbit around

our love
our love
our love is all we have
our love
our love is all of God’s money
everyone is a burning sun

tall buildings shake
voices escape singing sad sad songs
tuned to chords strung down your cheeks
bitter melodies turning your orbit around

voices whine
skyscrapers are scraping, your gravelly voice
is smoking
last cigarettes are all you can get
turning your orbit around
last cigarettes are all you can get
turning your orbit around
last cigarettes are all you can get
turning your orbit around